IT REALLY PAINS ME

Conflict really pains me. I hate it when things don't go well, or when people get upset, I get upset a lot, I'm a sensitive kind of guy. I see so much sadness, bereavement, and loss, and so much anger and skull duggery going on all around me and it rubs off on me. Today I heard of a pending divorce, saw the signatures on the sheets of paper: it occured to me that there will be a lot of upheavel now for the two people concerned, he's moving, she's staying, he's taking his electrical equipment and dvd and speakers which means the big flat screen tv she bought won't work. She wishes he'd take the double bed he made her sleep in this past three years - even though he slept with heaps of women in it prior to meeting her. There's a lot of pain between them. She knows she can't live with him calling her ugly, fat, and a foreigner. He never used to say goodnight when he got in bed or talk to her on long flights. I don't think he knows he treated her wrong - he told her he had to watch porn movies or he couldn't get it up or sleep with her because she was so 'sexually unattractive'. It's all so cruel, he's no great looker himself, he's on the wrong side of fifty, has a pot belly, and a pretty nasty face if I may say so. He always struck me as supercilious, while she was always interested in people and caring. I don't know why so many marriages don't work out.  It disappoints me so much that there are so many divorces, so many couples separating. But what can you do? People fall in love because they want someone, or want to start a new life, but it seems that as soon as you love someone they turn into someone else and everything changes. I hate change. That's why I hate war. It creates instability and makes us all rip at each other's throats. What's the point? We'll all be dead soon enough, our lives are such short ones, and we waste them agonizing over personal issues. I just want to fall in love and stay in love.  

TOO MUCH WAR

There is too much war, too many divisions, and far too much cruelty in the world. We have a collective headache borne from a worldwide psychosis that affects people who are in emotional distress and who prefer to exhibit their lack of ease by focussing on harm instead of cure, by focussing on damage instead of repair, and who prefer to focus on war instead of peace. As a race we human beings are all very very tired.